I can't...I just physically cannot do it anymore..

Guys...sorry I've been inactive as of late, but I have some tragic news...

Anna, or as most of you know her as Yoshanna has...well...

She passed away on the 17th. I...I am just heart-broken- devastated is probably the better term. We were walking home from school, minding our own business when suddenly, this car came swirling around the corner. I instinctively grabbed her arm and pulled her close to me, but it was too late. We were both hit and down for the count. The car sped off and we were left on the hot pavement to fend for ourselfs. I remember clutching my left ankle, feeling the blood pouring down into my shoe, but that was the least of my concerns. What really concerned me was turning my head to see Anna sprawled across the asphalt. She wasn't moving, and from what I could see, she was covered in blood as well. I somehow managed to drag myself over to where she was and cradle her in my arms, screaming for help. My whole body was shaking, and I just kept calling her name hoping that she would answer, or at least give me a sign that she was listening to me, but...she didn't. By now, our neighbors were all around us, calling 911 and calling to each other to get towels and other toiletries.

Long story cut short, I never got to see her beautiful green eyes again and it's all because of that stupid, selfish, despicable driver who cared about no one other than himself. Guys... you don't understand how much I loved Anna. She was my light...my everything. We always made each other happy if the other was sad, and she would always encourage me and I would to the same. We were even planning on going to the same college to stay together but now...it's all gone...We're all gone...I've been contemplating some thoughts that probably should not be crossing my mind, but I just can't help it because I just physically cannot do it anymore. I lost my mother last year to cancer and now Anna as well. I don't understand why the most 2 important females had to be taken away from me... I would have gladly taken their places without a second thought to it.

So now I tell you guys, farewell. I don't know if I'll come back, and I just don't mean back to deviantart, but to the world itself, but I just wanted to say thank you all for everything that you guys have done for me. I thank you all for the birthday wishes and presents, but I wish it didn't have to end this way. Also, I'm sorry to those who have been waiting for commissions from me, I will give you a full refund.

Well, goodbye everyone and again, thanks for everything.

Also, Daniel (JustAnotherBlueYoshi), Ethan (EchoYoshi), and Tai (0-YahtoYoshi-0) are taking this pretty hard as well, considering we were all close to Anna, so that's why they've been inactive as well. I dunno if they'll be online of not to share their thoughts with you as well.

Peace.

Chase "Cyan" Zanders.